So, I've been thinking about a certain man in the Bible lately. I guess because I can relate to him so well. You see, there was this father; and he had a son with some serious medical problems. (According to the Bible, these medical problems were due to a spirit that had come upon the boy--you can read the entire story in Mark 9:17-24). This dad was at the end of his rope. He had tried (as we all would have) to do whatever it took to get help for his son. I'm sure he tried doctors and medicines and treatments--anything he could find...but none of them worked. His son continued to struggle. As a father, he felt completely powerless. So, he brings his son to Jesus' disciples and asks for prayer...again, nothing happens. What must he have felt? Useless? Guilty for not being able to take care of his son? Well, then he works up the courage to speak to Jesus and says, "I brought my son to these guys you call your disciples and they couldn't heal him. What's up?" (my translation) :)
The dad continues to speak out and says, "Jesus--if you can do anything..." in other words, "I've heard the stories about you--and if they're true..." he says, "Please have pity on us and heal my son!"
So there it is...this dad who has come to the end of everything he can think of to fix the situation finally puts himself out there and says, "I can't fix this! I don't know what to do!" He asks Jesus to have compassion. The rest of the story goes something like this: Jesus basically says to the man, "What do you mean IF I can do anything? ANYthing is possible for those who believe."
And here is where I can completely relate to that father...he says (I imagine in a soft, broken voice), "I DO believe..." or "I want to believe that this is possible...but I need You to help me believe."
This was a situation that, for so LONG, had seemed like such an impossibility. How could he really believe for something that had failed to change for all this time? Can't you just hear his heart? "Oh, how I want to believe that this is the time things will change!" He couldn't do it in his own human strength, though, so he asked Jesus for help: "...I do believe, but help my unbelief!"
And this is (one of the MANY reasons) why I love Jesus so much. He doesn't come down on the guy for being weak in his thinking. He just totally and completely heals the little boy. And I can't help but imagine that father's overwhelming gratitude and amazement at what just happened. Something so much bigger than he could have ever imagined. Something that everyone else said was impossible...he was watching unfold right before his eyes.
That's where I am right now. Staring at a mountain that seems impossible to climb; taking tentative steps down a road of which I can't see the end. Believing God for a miracle that--logically--seems impossible; and being SO incredibly thankful that I don't serve a "logical" God. I serve the God with Whom NOTHING is impossible.
Please continue to pray for our family. We feel your prayers and we are grateful for them.
- Pray that we will receive confirmation of a certain document soon. :)
- Pray that each document we've already completed and every document that's still to come has been/will be completed correctly and accepted by the country.
- Please continue to pray for our children--that their hearts will be prepared for us--that they will WANT to be a part of our family.
- Please pray that God will continue to provide financially for this adoption. (And thank you to each and every one of you who have donated--every single cent is a huge blessing to our family!)
- Please pray for our children here--they have begun to express a bit of sadness at the amount of time that Sam & I will be away. Pray for their hearts to be strengthened and comforted.